God you know me best. No one speaks to me like you do. Knowing me inside out with all my flaws, yet you still love me like no others.thank you God

³ Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,
-Philippians 2:3

I failed my papers, again, but what matter most is that God never give up on me, yet, He told me this that is exactly where i went wrong. Though it pierce through me (because of my pride) but every words are so true. I did everything for my own selfish ambition. I wanted to score well for myself, for my family ( yes nothing of these is wrong but the main focus point is). 
After mission trip, i realize studying is not all about "me, myself and my life" anymore. As I was thinking about mission, I realize that if I'd pass my papers long ago, I would have been anle to do much more . Like right now we're waiting for people to land in "that land". If i'd graduated, I wouldn't need to pray and wait for people to land there already, I might be able to pack my bag and go already. In the past i ask for good results for my selfish ambition but now i see the urgency of finishing my studies to do more for God. Time on earth is not as long as we thought it'd be. Every second of time on earth is a gift from God, to finish what was assigned to us, to tell people of His love and to bring the lost back to Him. 
Lord, use me, help me to help the lost.

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.
-Acts 1:8