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Heavenly Father, thank you for your mercy and gracious on us, thank you for not keeping records of our sins. Lord Father, I know we have sinned, but Father you sees our heart desire. We separated cos we know we are not moving towards you together but leading each other into sinning again and again. Father you also see how much it really hurts when j and I separate.

Father I know if I've place you first in my life, nothing can hurts me, nothing will make me fall, so lord father, I really pray that you can show me the way.

Lord father teach me to be the person you've created me to be.

Father the truth is, I really miss j. I texted him, I know I shouldn't have cos I get no reply from him, which makes me feels kind of emotional all over again. But Father thank you for strengthening me that this time round, yes, deep in me I feel sad for the cold shoulder, wondering why is he ignoring me, is he hating me or something? But Father, I have You, I am secure. For I know if we're not meant to be, you surely have someone better for both of us. Lord father as I grow in your words, you made me realize how different I can treat him, how much better I'll know how to treat him. Lord father if you want to take this time to make me mature and grow in faith in you, Father I know I've definitely grown much more from the past me. Father, most of the time I just want to say if I can have one more chance to be with him, I'll surely treat him better this time, cos I've got your love that's overflowing from me.

Lord father I know I shouldn't be praying like this, cos my thoughts is not your thoughts and your ways are higher than mine.

Father I just pray that you could continue to strengthen me everyday, remind me to focus on you, remind me that it's the journey that matters the most and not the end product.Father I thank you for all your wonderful plans. Thank you for all the works you've done in me and I also wants to Thank you in advance for all the wonderful plans that's yet to reveal to me.

And I pray in Jesus name,Amen

number my days

no matter how many times i watch this video, listen to this song, it never fails to make my tears flow.

how many times have I broken Your heart, but still You forgive if only i ask.

everything I need is You, my beginning my forever.

God has done so much so for me, but what have i done in return? I haven't been doing much. I know there's much more than all these that I am able to do for Him.

Father I just want to be able to be used by You in all ways, able to be bring back the lost sheeps that was once like me. Heavenly Father, use me.