a prayer for Jia Hui

Heavenly father. I thank you for giving me this chance to be able to pray for this precious child of yours lord, Jia Hui. Lord you know everything that she is going through. Lord we know that everything is in your hand, under your control and we shall not fear for you are the head of the house, you are in control of everything. Lord I pray that as Jia Hui goes through this downtime, this difficult period of her life, lord may you look after her. Lord made her the light that shines your word your character your image so brighter in her house lord. Lord I pray that you will strengthen her, give her courage, give her strength, to take care of her family. Lord I pray that your presence will fill this family. Lord I pray that you will send people to her family, to help her and her family to get through this period. Lord I want to pray especially for Jia Hui's mum. Lord may your presence be so vivid in her life during this time. Lord you are a lord that is so faithful. Lord may you stay with this family, empower Jia Hui to carry out your work. Lord may you remind her to rely on You, on your strength and not hers, rely on the holy spirit to guide her and help her. Lord I give thanks in advance for the work that you will be doing in her and through her. Lord i also want to thank you, for your faithfulness. All these I pray in Jesus name. Amen

water baptize(9.10.11)

Lord I thank you that through You I am able to live again, be born again in Christ. Water baptize is a outward action but an inward conviction. Lord, let this day be remembered that I have died to myself and live again in Christ, being at my very best to live out the "You" that is in me.
Lord I thank you that even though what's left in me is almost equivalent to nothing but yet You hold me, You love me, You never forsake me. Lord I thank you that even though times and times I let You down, hurt You, but still, You welcome me with open arms. who on earth will do all these to someone who has hurt them so many times again and again but You lord.

Lord I want to carve all the prayers and encouragement prayers that my spiritual family had prayed for me, I want to be constantly reminded of all these.
- Lord I want to thirst and hunger for you more. Lord I desire to have the close relationship with you. Lord I want to walk close to you so that you may guide me to guide the crowd, into your kingdom.
-Lord even though I might be young spiritually, but I am willing to avail myself to be used for the work for the kingdom.
-Lord I know that doors of rejections will surely close on me, but Lord i have confident that as long as it is of God, nothing can be against you.
-Lord I want to be like a child, keep questioning like a child.
-Lord I want to keep that child-like faith, and believe that everything will be possible through you who gives me strength.

Lord I thank you for this new life. Lord i want to do more, more things for you lord, for whatever i am doing now for you is nothing as compared to what you have done for me lord.
Lord this life that i have does not belongs to me but to you, the creator of me, the author of me. Lord I give you thanks I give you praise.
In jesus name i pray.
Amen

inner vows

Lord I repent from whatever inner vows that I have made.
In Jesus name, cast out all these negativity in me. Lord we are all created in Your image, by saying that we are useless we are worthless is to say that You have done a bad job in us, which is definitely wrong.
Lord I am sorry many a times I keep saying I can't possibly lead people. Lord I want to relay on the Holy spirit to guide me, I want to partner with the Holy spirit to do works through me.
Lord I am sorry I always say it's impossible for me move on. Lord I believe, with you, everything is made possible.
Lord I am sorry for who I am last time, making myself doubting if I will even be used by you lord. Lord I believe now, that it's possible only if I am willing. Lord, I am wiling. Use me.

prayer walk

Today we applied what xinni teach us during the pioneering unit meet on 15th Sep2011. Our LG(Lestari Pris Qin Ning Joan Seng Kim) went to SAA for prayer walk. Really thank God for being so promptly in providing us with a place to pray and prepare out hearts before we head of to bring begin to pray. Level 3 of the building is a church but is usually lock, and today, we pressed level 3 to see and realise there are people in there today so we went to "try" and see if we can borrow their place for awhile to pray. Really can feel the warmth of how spiritual family are so helpful. God really thank you.

Joan sengkim and I started off from level 2. We prayed for the lecturers of the school because they definitely are the ones that will surely have an impact on the students. Lord how amazing it is that both group actually prayed specifically for the same group of people. 

When we went to level 4 and pray, Joan sengkim and i took one roll each to pray for when we were in the self study room. I was thinking, Lord, You put one church in the middle of the building, for? I donno if it is like this but i was reminded that when you light up the lamp, you put it on the highest place to shine off your light, therefore a church is build right in the middle of the building definitely to shine your light too lord. Because it is in the middle of the building it will be able to give equal brightness to the whole building, am I right to say so?

And when I was sitting by myself, I wrote down the prayer I made in that particular room, in the particular seat.(I purposely choose to sit in the very middle too. I know I am not able, but I am willing Lord)

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Here is my prayer:

Lord,I really want to pray for the people over here in this room. I pray that though they are busying revising and mugging, working very hard to gain knowledge and wisdom, Lord may you give them the knowledge that You are real Lord may you show them the real wisdom that they need is not found in any of the books they are reading now, but found only in the bible. Lord may you show them that working hard for what will be taken away one day eventually will be nothing as compared to working hard to gain Your smile. 

Lord I pray also for the believers in this room, that they will not only do well academically but also spiritually, and also doing well to shine for you lord, all glories be to you. Lord, remind them to yearn for more of you, to do Your will. Your kingdom come, Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. 

Lord, each and everyone in this room writes a different story, they come from everywhere of the earth, Lord I believe they are here not by coincidence. Lord use me to do what You want me to do. 

Lord all the strength they have, the energy they have will be used up, but Lord I pray that one day they will come to realize it is only possible to do all things with You in their life; they will be living their live that You have given to them to the fullest with You living in them, in their life. Lord I pray that You can use all believers possible, to associate to them and their needs, here, in this foreign land. Lord I pray that I can be a vessel to be use by you to bring them closer to You. Lord I am not doing the work but You are, through me. 

Lord I thank you for doing the work. Lord I thank you for opening up the doors of different people's heart. Lord I uphold all these unto Your hands. I thank you in advance for the work that You will be doing in me and through me Lord. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.
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After the prayer walk, we went to have dinner as we fast and pray from dinner. There is this aunty who came and sell tissue and all of us didn't buy. I have got no more cash so I didn't buy. None of us bought so she scolded us. ok I seriously felt guilty. Lord if it is You, what will you do?
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Lord at times I really find it tiring to love people that keeps disturbing me. Lord yes I can take jokes, but times and times I really can't take it anymore Lord. Lord may I grow in the areas of patience.

secure?

Heavenly Father, thank you for your mercy and gracious on us, thank you for not keeping records of our sins. Lord Father, I know we have sinned, but Father you sees our heart desire. We separated cos we know we are not moving towards you together but leading each other into sinning again and again. Father you also see how much it really hurts when j and I separate.

Father I know if I've place you first in my life, nothing can hurts me, nothing will make me fall, so lord father, I really pray that you can show me the way.

Lord father teach me to be the person you've created me to be.

Father the truth is, I really miss j. I texted him, I know I shouldn't have cos I get no reply from him, which makes me feels kind of emotional all over again. But Father thank you for strengthening me that this time round, yes, deep in me I feel sad for the cold shoulder, wondering why is he ignoring me, is he hating me or something? But Father, I have You, I am secure. For I know if we're not meant to be, you surely have someone better for both of us. Lord father as I grow in your words, you made me realize how different I can treat him, how much better I'll know how to treat him. Lord father if you want to take this time to make me mature and grow in faith in you, Father I know I've definitely grown much more from the past me. Father, most of the time I just want to say if I can have one more chance to be with him, I'll surely treat him better this time, cos I've got your love that's overflowing from me.

Lord father I know I shouldn't be praying like this, cos my thoughts is not your thoughts and your ways are higher than mine.

Father I just pray that you could continue to strengthen me everyday, remind me to focus on you, remind me that it's the journey that matters the most and not the end product.Father I thank you for all your wonderful plans. Thank you for all the works you've done in me and I also wants to Thank you in advance for all the wonderful plans that's yet to reveal to me.

And I pray in Jesus name,Amen

number my days

no matter how many times i watch this video, listen to this song, it never fails to make my tears flow.

how many times have I broken Your heart, but still You forgive if only i ask.

everything I need is You, my beginning my forever.

God has done so much so for me, but what have i done in return? I haven't been doing much. I know there's much more than all these that I am able to do for Him.

Father I just want to be able to be used by You in all ways, able to be bring back the lost sheeps that was once like me. Heavenly Father, use me.