pride is not something from God. My prayer today (and everyday) is to ask God to remove this prideful heart of mine and exchange it with a soft and humble heart. God i need more of you, sso that there'll be no more room for any other thing. lord teach me to walk in your way.

23search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 see if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in th way everlasting.

God you know me best. No one speaks to me like you do. Knowing me inside out with all my flaws, yet you still love me like no others.thank you God

³ Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,
-Philippians 2:3

I failed my papers, again, but what matter most is that God never give up on me, yet, He told me this that is exactly where i went wrong. Though it pierce through me (because of my pride) but every words are so true. I did everything for my own selfish ambition. I wanted to score well for myself, for my family ( yes nothing of these is wrong but the main focus point is). 
After mission trip, i realize studying is not all about "me, myself and my life" anymore. As I was thinking about mission, I realize that if I'd pass my papers long ago, I would have been anle to do much more . Like right now we're waiting for people to land in "that land". If i'd graduated, I wouldn't need to pray and wait for people to land there already, I might be able to pack my bag and go already. In the past i ask for good results for my selfish ambition but now i see the urgency of finishing my studies to do more for God. Time on earth is not as long as we thought it'd be. Every second of time on earth is a gift from God, to finish what was assigned to us, to tell people of His love and to bring the lost back to Him. 
Lord, use me, help me to help the lost.

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.
-Acts 1:8

Hidden sin. Transparent life.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.- James 5:16

Righteous man- one that prays according to God's will, knowing God's will and God's heart.

With this heart open wide
From the depths, from the heights
I will bring a sacrifice
With these hands lifted high
Hear my song, Hear my cry
I will bring a sacrifice
I will bring a sacrifice

I lay me down I'm not on my own
I belong to You alone
Lay me down, lay me down
Hand on my heart, this much is true
There's no life apart from You
Lay me down, lay me down

Letting go of my pride
Giving up all my rights
Take this life and let it shine
Take this life and let it shine

I lay me down I'm not on my own
I belong to You alone
Lay me down, lay me down
Hand on my heart, this much is true
There's no life apart from You
Lay me down, lay me down
Lay me down, lay me down

It will be my joy to say
Your will, Your way
It will be my joy to say
Your will, Your way
It will be my joy to say
Your will, Your way
Always

It will be my joy to say
Your will, Your way
It will be my joy to say
Your will, Your way
It will be my joy to say
Your will, Your way
Always

I lay me down I'm not on my own
I belong to You alone
Lay me down, lay me down
Hand on my heart, this much is true
There's no life apart from You
Lay me down, lay me down

I lay me down I'm not on my own
I belong to You alone
Lay me down, lay me down
Hand on my heart, this much is true
There's no life apart from You
Lay me down, lay me down
Oooh
Lay me down, lay me down

my "SONG OF THE YEAR". hahaha. lay me down. lay my life down before you.

a prayer for Jia Hui

Heavenly father. I thank you for giving me this chance to be able to pray for this precious child of yours lord, Jia Hui. Lord you know everything that she is going through. Lord we know that everything is in your hand, under your control and we shall not fear for you are the head of the house, you are in control of everything. Lord I pray that as Jia Hui goes through this downtime, this difficult period of her life, lord may you look after her. Lord made her the light that shines your word your character your image so brighter in her house lord. Lord I pray that you will strengthen her, give her courage, give her strength, to take care of her family. Lord I pray that your presence will fill this family. Lord I pray that you will send people to her family, to help her and her family to get through this period. Lord I want to pray especially for Jia Hui's mum. Lord may your presence be so vivid in her life during this time. Lord you are a lord that is so faithful. Lord may you stay with this family, empower Jia Hui to carry out your work. Lord may you remind her to rely on You, on your strength and not hers, rely on the holy spirit to guide her and help her. Lord I give thanks in advance for the work that you will be doing in her and through her. Lord i also want to thank you, for your faithfulness. All these I pray in Jesus name. Amen